What's the point?

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I want to say fuck it all for all I care right now.

Fuck it.

I am angry, and I am sad. I bring you out to form a connection, to bond with you, to have fun with you, and you treat me like a piece of shit. You treat me like a bastard, and you mock me in front of the world. What's the point of going out if we don't do a bit of exploring? A bit of sightseeing at the shopping mall, like others? What? Are those places that are illegal or fucked up for your stupid fucking ego? I just want to form a connection with you. Is that so fucking wrong?

Others would want that because their children have abandoned them. I am not like that. I want to spend time with you. Is that wrong? You really are fuck up in the mind? You and your stupid ego. It doesn't mean that I want to go to these places to buy something. It doesn't have to mean that I need to buy something. I just want to look around with you. 

Don't you understand?

And you have to mock me in front of the world? Telling them that I am jobless and friendless. It's not my fucking fault. Why does everything have to come back to that? Blame the fucking companies that are not willing to hire me, and so what if you don't have friends? So fucking what? You ruin my fucking weekend. You always RUIN my fucking weekend.

You want to be alone?

I'll leave you alone. I'll make sure you stay alone for the rest of your fucking miserable life.

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