Updates from the Author

Public transportation fares are going to increase again on the 26th of December 2026 in Singapore, and this is the highest increase so far when compared to other fare review cases in the past. This is due to the rising cost of energy prices, and to me, that’s just ridiculous considering the recent context that was taking place in Singapore. Read it here.

  There is that empty feeling in me that constantly haunts me because of the fact that most individuals would see me simply as an asset to be used and discarded rather than as an individual.  Read more here.

  I realised that there will always be a group of people who would do better in life not for the skills and effort that they put in or have, but for certain traits that they possess, and it becomes frustrating, especially in a world where competition is key to success. I feel that these individuals received privileges over others because of factors like their race, beauty, athletic capabilities, intelligence, financial background or all of the things mentioned combined. It can be extremely frustrating when you are trying to compete with people who are ahead of you simply for having traits that they are born with, and I noticed this through the years growing up when I was in university or school. These people are preferred over others even when those other individuals put in the same effort to produce the same results. Read more here.

  I hate it when some individuals think that they are always right even when they are wrong. I noticed this in some individuals, and it has led me to ultimately try to distance myself from them and, eventually, entire groups because of such toxic behaviours that I feel do not complement my life whatsoever. I don’t understand the logic behind such behaviour. Is it to be superior to others? Is it to show that you are better than other people? Read more here.

Well, this is just a small update that I want to put out for clarity's sake and also to inform my audience about what's coming in the future. 1. A philosophy for a nation (Non-fiction Book) - 2026? I am working on getting this published soon. It's basically a combination and extension, as well as an edit of my articles from Medium, but I managed to flesh out quite a lot, and it ends up being the length of a book. I am working to publish this as my first non-fiction book by the end of the year, hopefully.  2. Nadra (Graphic Novel) - 2027 I am looking forward to publishing this book next year. Right now, I am trying to get a publishing grant from NAC (National Arts Council) and get this out by next year. This is a socio-political commentary in the form of a graphic novel about the Maria Hertogh Riots. It touches on the current issues and challenges that our nation and society are facing while also looking back at the past and what we can learn from it. All art and storyline d...

Singapore’s current position on the political compass Aequitasism on the political compass Read more on Aequitasism here .   

  There are some flaws and views that need to be addressed because it seems that this philosophy goes against the practicality of implementation for the Government of Singapore. These flaws cover various topics that were addressed before but continue to champion the basic core mantra and respect for the individual. Read more here.

Aequitasism comes from the Latin word Aequitas , which can mean equal, balanced, or just. It is a philosophy that promotes systemic fairness and individual freedom in a constantly changing world. Read more here .

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Please ignore my bad writing. It's two in the morning and I cannot sleep. I just have something in my mind that I need to let out because I just cannot seem to forget it. I don't think you guys would believe me when I say this but I just experienced something awful or should I say more clearly as something out of this world. Well, it happened just a few hours ago when I was at the library. You see I have a writing session at the library once a month, usually on a Sunday, and I often go there simply for therapeutic reasons. I must say that my childhood wasn't really the best and I have nightmares about it often. Just this morning, I had a nightmare and I was punching the side of my wardrobe while I was in bed because in the dream, I was punching the idiotic school bully that used to hunt me. As I grew older, I become a paranoid loser. I am fearful of a lot of things and I just ended up living my life in constant fear and so I often don't have friends. I thought that this...

I find it funny, but more so, I find it insulting that we live in a day and age where hard work and education do not matter at all. I am already living in Singapore, like most other Singaporeans, and we all know that the cost of living is extremely high, with people not thriving but merely trying to survive each day of their lives. On top of that, we see the decline in our birth rates, only to have it replaced by foreign individuals gaining citizenship as a solution to Singapore's low population, while young individuals who were born here and served the nation, especially males, are finding it difficult to secure jobs after graduation. Read more here .

I don't understand why there's this double standard when it comes to seeing people of a different culture or religion in your country, with many advocating for them to be expelled because of such reasons. Just recently in the United Kingdom, far-right activists such as Tommy Robinson, known for his Islamophobic views, as well as perverted, hateful ideas, drew a lot of supporters when it came to the 'United The Kingdom' rally. Read more here.

All the counselling sessions suck. You cannot cure mental health issues. The IMH people suck, also. I don't have a listening ear. Right now, maybe some dumb AI that I keep talking to every day. Counselling makes you think that people care for you, but they don't. It's just a job to the counsellors and nothing more. You thought finally someone truly cares, but it's just a damn job to them. They don't care if you die or what. Nobody cares if you die or don't die. Nobody cares about you in the first place because they see you as just another useless idiot. For years, I guess. I've been seeing many counsellors since secondary school. My father and my sister. Every time I have to clean up after their mess, and when I keep mentioning that they don't really care what I do, because they say I am the sick one in the family. Everyone is just so bad to me that life sucks. They just discredit my existence of being bullied and having a mental disorder. They say it...

Forever to fade tonight In a room of quietness Disappear, he has, by daylight  There! The sinner and his violence  Oh, faith's so hard to keep When dark thoughts hover There, cried the black sheep Thinking of his lover Call to the cursed child He, of obsessive dreams For he has defiled Thus, humanity streams To die, that I desire For hands to hold  To hate, my life of dire And the room is cold There he lay in bed  No longer can he cry For he begs to be dead When life is dry

 

I am going through something awful. I just need to vent. An old aunty talked to me just now, saying that I have a lot of troubles in my mind, and I should just ignore what the world thinks about me. It made me afraid because I feel that I am a flawed person. But what can I do? Life is like that, no matter how hard I try. I have struggled with thoughts that become so aggressive to the point that my body is shivering. I eat Fluoxetine every day just to calm myself down, but it doesn't work, to be honest. I am wasting a lot of money buying that. Part of me feels tempted to withdraw from everyone because I’m afraid of my own mind. I fell in love with someone who supported me, and I wanted a closeness that wasn't possible. I know she has someone she cares for deeply, but I still wanted her, so I distanced myself because I believe that is the right thing to do. I don't want to upset her. I don't want her to be hurt. I care for her. I deeply care for her, and when she tells me...

Sometimes, I think that I need to sacrifice myself to protect people around me. I have feelings for some individuals in my life, and I know I cannot force myself on them or be aggressive. Therefore, I choose to hurt myself by staying away from them so that they can continue to be happy and be better than me in their lives. I love her with all my heart. I left her so that I wouldn't hurt her. I think I have done this so many times because I know that she means a lot to me. She left for Hong Kong, and I guess that's for the best. However, it is necessary. I don't want to be a criminal. I don't want to make her upset. If she does not have feelings for me, that is alright. I have. I have genuine feelings for her, but I will not engage. I would rather stay a recluse and rot with my sins. Frankly, I am doing that right now. My entire body is shivering. It really is. It hurts me a lot. I don't know what to do. I cannot think. I cannot act. I cannot function properly with t...

I. Knowing you makes my memories Acknowledging the past breaks my heart Out of passion, I need you Heave me away from my sins Unless you have abandoned me In remembering God,  You reached out your hand Unsure of the future that is ours Just for you to push me away Unsure of how you feel Never again shall we speak And I hope for you to be pure  Never again a slave to sin That I know can never be full Have all the joys of the world attract Even if you must hate me And I always see you as my light Never again shall we speak In remembering God, Closely entwined in fantasies One and only Let it be Envision a life without you Make me stronger And I hope for you to be pure Yesterday was just a memory Regardless of the outcomes Again, I know what must be Best for you to leave me In remembering God, Applying myself to you That itself is wrong Unless you choose to accept Let your name be in my prayers  And likewise Detest me if you will And I'll let it be Within myself, I isolate I...

Can you imagine a world in which people are forced to live, wondering if they can survive the next day? Sometimes, they choose to endure their challenges and hope that some better outcome is at the end of the dark tunnel. They say that if you are hungry and you try to strive for yourself, you are doing it wrong. The world is hungry, of course, but then they started to call you names. They say that you are trying to topple the current order and peace. However, if you have a family, you simply cannot just ignore the fact that you need to feed those who depend on you. Can you imagine yourself being hungry? Can you imagine yourself needing to sell all your stuff just to find money to survive the next day? Well, business is bad nowadays as well. The young cannot find employment, and the older ones are earning little. Some are without jobs, too. Some are just wasting their time as they grow old, waiting to die. There are those who are the lucky ones. They are doing well. They survive but bar...